Friday, 8 April 2011

week 2 ...

This week has been so far the hardest of the first 2.....
Saturday i went to see my father at the funeral directors, this was so hard but it sort of eased me a bit in a way, i am glad i did it.
Finally for the week, tuesday was the funeral.
Extremely hard, but I splashed out on a new suit for him and decided that i would carry his coffin and would get up and do a speech. I would recommend to anyone to do this. Not only did i get to say what i really wanted to infront of everyone but i also have no regrets and now know that my dad had the best send off.
It really was the best funeral i have ever been to and i'm so happy at the standard it was at.
Chris Popplewell

Friday, 1 April 2011

Week 1 ...

I have to say this week ahse been draining.... Emotionally, Physically and Mentally.
I have had no end of people saying that they are sorry and that they are always there for me, that doesnt help and to be honest i'm getting rather fed up of it. But people don't often know what to say in these sorts of situation's so i just let them say it.
I found that the easiest thing for me was to share my feelings with the closest around me, (Friends and Family) so they know what I'm going through. Well, in a sence.
I'm glad i have had someone there for me when i need them most.
I never really wanted all that many people to know, thats why i only told the few and i'm happy that the people that matter are there and do know what's going on.
This week has been tough. i have had no end of people asking me what the matter is and to be honest i never want to be alone with my thoughts, i have been arranging the funeral and seeing important people and i'm only 18. I never wanted this and to go on like it never happened has to be the hardest thing in the world. But whats worse is that to go on and go see him, go see her and go see these people, phone these organise this and not know where to start or who to turn to and just say.... im really struggling. help.
I was in a way a lucky person. my auntie works at a funeral directors so sits with me at my home and goes through it with me step by step. thank god.
If anyone reading this needs help. Leave a comment and i will get back to you. thank you